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taken from: Suicide & After words

’Conscious Labour’ is making an effort - an effort relative to Knowledge! The more you make that kind of effort - the more you see. And what you see, at this level, is the pain. And that’s where the ’Intentional’ comes in - to face that vibration intentionally! It’s quite the opposite of what we normally do, as we turn away or block it. That’s really the beginning of chozer bet’shuva - facing this level first of all as energy.

What do you suffer from? Is it all the stuff that you avoided, all those things that didn't 'agree' with you? Things that didn't agree with the mechanical habits of your mind, emotions, or body. The 'Reality of Now' you found 'uncomfortable'... and you didn't suffer it like a Man. You said it was 'wrong'. Eventually you are unable to say 'wrong' because you realize that your wrong is somebody else's right, and there are a million wrongs and a million rights. Maybe, then, you are approaching the end of mechanical, useless suffering.
'Conscious Labor and Voluntary Suffering.'
You go to an issue of your choice and are prepared to suffer the Second Force (resistance), CONSCIOUSLY.